this matrix between us
the fluid she was drinking was bright red
she pulled blonde hair behind an ear
the rich red lipstick and sad eyes
were enough to kill me, there
she looked pale and in need
i can help you, i though
i can bring you hibiscus tea in bed
this matrix between us is only space
and fear
i cannot move closer
i cannot walk away
or brush the hair from your eyes
like a chessboard of hopeful glances
you cannot help but notice my attention
licking your finger to turn a page
a play, would you like to see a play
you look as if you could use a laugh
we don't have to hold hands
or make promises
i am merely tired of walking alone
tonight, in this strange city
she leaves without a word
